After having read all the mails in the inbox , the mind wanders in various directions as there is nothing much left to do .In the process, it tends to go back to the last mail read. The latter automatically leaves an indelible impression. Probably, the mind follows the rule of Last in First Out. So far everything seems normal.Nothing unusual. But it becomes bad if the mail contains a contemplative message. A vacant head is most vulnerable to such mails. It gets even worse if the mail contains mind boggling words like future, goal, aim etc. A sudden rush of adrenalin is experienced. A finger immediately pops out of the computer screen and points right at the center of the nose. The future seems black and mind becomes blank. The “on bench” period, which had come as a blessing after rigorous training sessions, starts haunting. The sudden realization of sitting idle and doing nothing keeps peeving incessantly. Then comes the time of action. Socks are pulled up and back is erected. The process of planning, hence, begins. A mental “to do” list gets built up instantly, as if the latter was sitting right there hiding in some corner of the cerebrum, yearning for attention but never had been paid heed to. This is followed by formation of a mental time table which gets created only after incessant introspection.
Introspection implies figuring out the possible fields of improvement. For instance, the various new habits which can be incorporated. A number of childhood desires, like, to learn to play guitar, keyboard etc. or to learn dance, find a convenient position in the “to do” list .But the future plan steals away all the limelight. The goal to improve upon the career graph is given the highest priority. The next tussle arises when one out of the two, higher studies or job , has to be chosen. Higher studies appear to be a more lucrative option and hence it wins. This decision does not end the mental turmoil. The poor little brain is required to research about the various higher studies options available. But this is postponed till the next day as part of plan of action.
The frivolous antics come to an end when the eyes fall upon a pop up on the computer screen. With a light ,persistent smile of satisfaction and a high spirited heart , lunch is attended. The mind does not pay attention to the claptrap being discussed at the lunch table .It is busy swimming in its own pool of plans. It comes back to the present world only when few familiar words like “future and “higher studies” hit the ears. The latter grasp the topic of discussion and the smile of satisfaction transforms into smile of snobbery , on realizing the fact that the rest are also worried about their “no work” situation but haven’t yet thought of any solutions. The hands rise up robotically to pat the back for being the first one to take the initiative. When asked for suggestions ,the heart prefers to speak the truth but the mind pulls it back saying “First implement the plan, the results will speak” .So the question is deliberately overlooked.
Lunch ends. The heart waits desperately in the cubicle to clock the last 9.15 hours as an idler and for tomorrow to come so that the master plan can enter into the implementation phase. The clock strikes 5:15.It is time to go back home. Excited for a new life and a new beginning ,the eyes close at night.
The “new morning” starts with the most exasperating thing on this planet-a monotonous alarm. The first thing in the morning, according to the time table schedule, was to practice yoga. The irony that happens in such a situation is that the two biggest enemies on the earth-the heart and the mind ,unite completely and yell out in unison-“Relax Dude !!this is not the last day of your life. There is always a tomorrow”. Eventually, the eyes and the mind shut up to the brutal world.
On reaching the office , with a heart heavy with guilt, the eyes scan through the mails again-A mandatory task for each working day. No sooner than it comes across another inspiring mail, does the mind start working on a new agenda. The only difference is that this time the number of vows increase by one. The list of oaths include the pledge to follow the time table religiously.
